(Chorus) IT'S TO LATE TO SAVE ME NOW, I'M SO FAR GONE the monsters in my head are just to strong i feel like i'm losin touch, i can't hold on and this where, the evil consumes it's chaos in bloom (Verse) Love left me devistated, full of anger and hatred with no where to aim it, and maybe it changed me maybe i'm jaded, or just maybe i'm crazy or maybe my brain thinks of stranger things maybe you'll understand if you just let me explain maybe there's a reason for the way that i became such a mental wreck and i just can't fan out the flames and in a search for who i was, you'll see that nothin remains cuz in tough times, we all go thru a change and there were days that i would cry in the rain tear drops frozen in the cold snow and i aint the same cuz of things i can't let go, like i might die with the shame and i just get high so i can hide away from the pain smoke a little so i can write so life don't drive me insane i pour my soul in a song so i can let it all drain alot of thoughts to prosess while i wait for the train (Chorus) (Verse) Listening to the wind whistling with the moon glistening my hands blister, as i quiver my lips, with legs shivering it's worth mentioning that i can hear the voices whispering and i been wishing for a sip of the gen, i been slippin this grin withering, it's so crippeling, these thoughts rippeling by the minute, i been picturing my pen delivering this gem as i go postal just tryin to lift the weight off of my chest i'm so close to the edge, just tryin to offer my best travelin without a GPS, i been lost in my head wishin for somethin to go right, wondering whats left i keep takin these steps, while i struggle to take one breath this life keeps tryin to fuck me, i wonder what comes next but all i can think about is what somebody once said Forget the pain, mock the pain, reduce it. And laugh. cuz if i don't, i might just lose it and crash so i stick to this path while improvin my craft (Chorus) (Verse) You love when i write about the dreams that i'm chasin but you don't understand the pain that i'm facin it takes me to places to make it seem like i'm crazy sometimes i try to pretend like things don't phase me but behind the seams i'm shaking, trying not to create a scene but i'm aching anxiety attacks got me tryin to pick a bottle up hide behind the liqour and i bottle up but then i pick up the pen and follow up and let out all the demons that i swallowed up til i'm hollowed out, -- but (Chorus) (Verse) Started drinkin at fifteen, sinkin in jim beam thinkin it's a sick dream, tryin to think of what this shit means i'm to nice for this cruel world, people tellin me to get mean i'm just wishin i could skip scenes, find a slipknot to slip out, wait i found a fix thanks to hip hop can't put the pen down, it just sticks and it gets hot i start to sweat from the heat of these ink blots to make you stop and think, but don't let your dreams rot just let the speakers talk it'll hit the sweet spot with all of these thoughts that i keep locked inside of the vault, just find where the key dropped i'm letting you in, pushin all of my secretes out while i stand on top of the mountain and i scream and shout (Chorus)

(Chorus)x2 will they come to see me, when i'm home and safe or will i be a memory, that finally met it's fate Will they remember me before it's to late or will they come to see me, with roses on my grave (Verse) I feel like nobody comes to see me until they find a reason to need me and if i was fallin down and bleeding nobody would ever believe it cuz they think i got it easy just cuz the fact i'm breathing but believe me when i say i'm weezing and they keep feeding into this frenzy as i'm weeping ever so gently hidden by the darkness that surrounds my apartment and things are getting harder the harder i try to barter and thats just part of the problem cuz i feel like i'm unwanted haunted by suicldle thoughts and (Chorus)x2 (Verse) Lately all i got is music, all my friends are non-existant i'm all alone and sometimes i can't tell the difference between dreams and reality, it all feels like fiction and i'm reading my own story with pages missing chapters in my life that i keep forgetting wondering if i can keep on living or if my funeral is in the distance got me wonderin if this rope can hold as sweat and alchol soak my clothes wouldn't matter if i wrote a note cuz everybody's shoulder is as cold as snow i'm on my phone wonderin where did Cody go? as i keep falling in a darker hole wishin somebody could come lift me out but i'm the one that all forget about maybe i'm the one they can live without (Chorus)x2 (Verse) I've been tryin to die ever since i started livin ever since the age of when i was in the kitchen stickin knives in my stomach, but i didn't push hard enough to break the skin ~ comin home from school just wishin i could be accepted by some friends if only you knew half the story but eventually every chapter ends ~ every person i ever came close to either died or moved away this is why i'm afraid to get to know you cuz it's hard for me to enjoy today knowin you'll be gone tomorrow and i'll be alone in the days that follow and i'll be left with nothin but memories pictures on the wall that i'm treasuring wondering if anybody even remembers me or if i'm just a random identity havin a crisis of the century havin trouble understandin sensory tryin to make sense of these maybe if i close my eyes i can begin to see a better life or will i find the end of me? (Chorus)

(Intro) i'm just - a butterfly - trapped inside of this web and i got -- people wishin i was dead and i hear -- so many things bein said and i got - spiders crawlin inside of my head (Verse) Paranoid by the noises, overwhelmed by the choices (I MADE) live and die by the poison, overdisin to avoid the things that (I HATE) try to shake it off, but i just can't seem to break away (NO ESCAPE) from these chains that hold me down (i'VE HAD ALL I CAN TAKE) they wanna push me, but don't wanna see me on the edge they call me pussy but don't wanna see me lose my head they wanna judge me, but don't wanna see me at my best they say they love me but don't wanna see the hole in my chest that these bitches dug when i gave em the key to my heart little did i know that i was just feeding the sharks little bits and pieces til they would leave me in the dark i gave myself to the world, only to be torn apart And you just watched as they slowly drove me crazy and you just laughed thinkin maybe it won't phase me and you just sat there while i laid there weezing and you just acted like my hands weren't bleeding (Chorus) and i got -- people wishin i was dead and i hear -- so many things bein said and i got - spiders crawlin inside of my head i'm just - a butterfly - trapped inside this web (Verse) Some people are scared, listening, feeling embarassed like "is this about me?" well if the shoe fits than wear it cuz if you were there and just watched my nightmare and didn't try to spare a moment to show that you care then that means that you just stared and watched my downfall without liftin a hand a hair to at least hold me to the wall so i stand here now with this middle finger to you all and you better hope, i don't see you when i'm fifty feet tall like David collided with goloiath to multiply into a giant so defiant that i can't find it in my mind to forgive you for them times that you lied so i'll just forget you existed so i don't have to sit and live with all this resentment that you need to repent for so i give you a sentence go straight to jail, no collectin two hundred, no advancin life without parole cuz i don't just hand out 2nd chances cuz that only gives you time to fake a better answer (Chorus 2) And i hear -- so many things bein said and i got -- people wishin i was dead and i got - spiders crawlin inside of my head i'm just - a butterfly - trapped inside this web (Verse) I write a verse but it aint for the bible cuz if you say it in church you'll burst into fire and if you say it hurts, you're preachin to the choir i feel i been cursed, and i can no longer hide it i don't know whats worse, is that i'm suicidle or the fact that every day i continue to fight it i've held the bullet, ready to pull it and bite it this knife is feelin so nice as i slide it against my skin like once i slice it, i might die, it could be the perfect end but before i go i better write a letter to all of my friends but what do i say? honestly i don't know where to begin cuz if they were my friends i wouldn't be holdin this pen they wouldn't have let me fall in this hole that i'm in but maybe i pushed em away, maybe it's to late maybe i ignored all the advice that they gave maybe it's my fault and i've been diggin my own grave (Outro) i'm just - a butterfly - trapped inside of this web and i got -- people wishin i was dead and i hear -- so many things bein said and i got - spiders crawlin inside of my head

(Chorus) Just a bunch of wolves waiting in the darkness I can't believe i trusted you, can't believe you lied to me can't believe i cried for you, and showed you that side of me can't believe i fought for you, told you i would die for you always gonna ride for you, just for you to stick that knife in me chew me up, and spit out, and leave me heartless cuz you're just a bunch of wolves waiting in the darkness (Verse) Funny how people come along, telling you to be strong only to loosen up the same handle you're holdin on i thought Donna was cool, and i had a friend in John introduced em to Cody thinkin this crew is bomb and at the same time thought they could do no wrong only for them to turn the fuck around prove me wrong crazy how things change, and i'm left in the blizzard beggin for forgiveness to lift me from this shit i live with regretting every minute but this is my fault that i'm in it i thought in the beginning that things would be different only to see evil grinnin while i try to write perfect ending nervously searching for words to drip from this pen but if i give up then i give in and thats how they win so fuck it, i'll move on, and they'll never see me again if only that was true, but dammit i'm a sucker for humanity and who knew they would use that to their advantage i was just tryin to help...i don't understand it i guess bad people just take you for granted (Verse) Erika You came in my life when i was at my worst i was trying to get up, i was stuck in the dirt my mom left, and cuz of bills my wallet was hurt and you pretended to care and i believed every word i let you in my life, thinkin everything would be alright i gave you all my fire, thinkin you could light up the night i thought you had desire, and i wanted to see it ignite but all you ever wanted was to get high with the kites took my five's, took my tens, took my twenty's took my dollars, took my sense, took my money took my trust, broke me down, left me crumbled when you said you'd help me out, i'm a dummy i should of saw it coming but i thought maybe you just needed a hand to maybe you just needed a friend to understand you maybe you needed somebody thats not a damn tool maybe i could lift you up, but maybe i'm a damn fool i just wish i could of maybe held an intervention but i couldn't dig up enough real real friends in your life that care enough to pay attention to sit down with you in hopes that you listen so maybe you hear this and, maybe it's enough maybe you stay away from clubs maybe you get away from drugs and maybe you find it in yourself to love and i'm sorry that i had to give up (Verse) Speaking of being taken for granted Mom remember when you decided to abandon? it's crazy how we only became a family after you walked out the door without a goodbye of course we would cry, without a doubt i won't lie but without you we got stronger the longer you were gone just to survive without you and prove you wrong if you thought you were the one holding the house up cuz mother fucker i lifted the foundation from the ground up you tried to turn us upside down, and it left us inside out but from the outside lookin in, it really made me proud that we made it and i fuckin say this loud and hope you turn this up so you can really hear me now all the love i had, all the good i felt got left in the fire for it all to melt ripped up photo's, and oh oh those owls i had to throw those out with all the towels i used to clean the mess i made with lemonade and different stains in the wedding dress you saved i don't want no phone calls, no letters left in my name no happy birthdays, so my numbers getting changed and i've already forgetten every word you ever said to me so rest in peace you piece of shit your dead to me, i've said my piece (Chorus)

(Chorus) Come take a walk with me let me talk to you bring down the walls for you cuz i need you all to see whats goin on with me let me talk to you (Verse) i'm stuck in my mental - roasting - and i just won't focus / i'm clutchin my center - broken - from rust and erosion / a rush of adrenalin - approaches - but it's hopeless, i'm frozen / something has entered - the moment - i opened this opus / it jumped in the middle - to soak in - the motive is noticed / and love feels so bitter - i wrote this - just so i can cope but / i'm cutting a little - just hoping - the blood flows in the notebook / to touch you with riddles - unloading - explosives in potions / i'm slowly corroding just know that i'm throwing ferocious emotions/ my slogan is woven in doses - to show what i wrote in these poems / i'm quoting - devoted to close this by showing my omens can't own me / they're only provoking this soldier, i told you my shoulders can hold em / plus i'm committed to pump in your system - with trumpets so listen / i'm comin with wisdom - crumbled in bits drippin in puddles of liquids / wonderin if this thunder is hittin - i'm givin you hundreds of visions / so vividly written in prisms delivered to give you a wonderful picture / (Chorus) (Verse) i fill you with facts - verbally gifted - to get you feelin my tracks/ heal you with passion with words to uplift that i instill in these raps / i'm kickin the fad - went from flirting with liqour - to pickin the tab up / don't seal up the hatch - The burdens been lifted - i'm thrilled to be back / burning some bridges - to build a new path - you'll learn in these scriptures / i won't fill you with acts - i'm returning to give you - a million new stats / to stirr in the mixture - and i fill up the gas - in a hurry to hit ya / with skill in this bat - searchin for wisdom - when will you get that / i murder this when - i get in the zone - and flirt with disaster / you heard it and ya - called up ya homies - tellin em that ya/ turned it up and now - ya speakers are blown - tryin to capture / words that i penned - to set the tone - but this is just a fraction / cuz if we add up - what they subtracted - thats just half of the chapter / multiplied by the passion - only divided by the fact that / people are ignorin what you say like none of it matters / it's only gucci if it's gucci gang bangin thru the rafters / but i aint Gucci Mane - i came with my own type of baggage / (Chorus) (Verse) i'm a grown man - i been fightin - just writin in hopes that i survive / while tyin my own hands - i been silent - tryin to cope with my own riot / some may not understand - what it's been like - feelin suicidle / just doin what i can - in this hard life - with somethin crawlin inside / tryin to get out - when i'm writin - i'm just tryin to open ya eyes / lettin it slip out - i can't hide it - don't care if i'm crossin a line / sorry if you trip out - i won't lie - when i'm speakin my mind / my heart has been ripped out - left to die - almost followed the light / took a detour - and now you see i - don't get swallowed by the night / closed the door - had some me time - when i was hollow inside / settled the score - and now that i'm free, i - push it all to the side / better than before - i see the sun shine - didn't fall to the guise / of demons in an angels gown - not afraid of a frayed layer of skin / just won't keep em around - i display my pain on a page with a pen / and if i ever hit the ground - i'm okay - i'll rise again / nothin can keep me down - i stay - stronger than i've ever been / (Chorus)

(Verse)(Sol 8) Peace of mind, one day I'ma get there The tree of life sways in the winds of change A gentle breeze blows in the east Slows my roll until it's over my shoulder in peace Only I dream of when it sets in the west The reason why is the sky lights never regret My gaze, as I gaze on and I don't blink At that iceberg, then my boat sinks We keep on going round and round it's a trip Goin' under, well, this Captain goes down with his ship I'll be found on the bridge Facin' the waves as my blank face musters every ounce of my will I'd pounce on the feelin' of feelin' it I'm now numb, goin' down under till I found luck How fuckin' exhaustin' - Crunch time and I lost it Paper crumbled on carpet, I'd be hard pressed to keep these rhymes, cause I don't feel like, I am me, right Now in this second I just feel like Out of my body, down in the lobby Bound to a hobby, thrown on the ground you just watch me I'ma get back up, you add fuel to the flame It takes two for the tango, play on Chaotic creation? They saw you were makin' googly eyes You threw me for lies two at a time Movin' in line, fluid but I saw through it cause why The fuck would I even follow you into battle Jugglin' more than what I usually handle Prove to me happiness is true, then Till then I'm hawk-eyin' this chess board for movement That's what I'm playin', and for the record Ya'll playin' checkers, Kobe jaw mixed with Tony Stark Holy water couldn't wash me off Cause it evaporates the second it touches my skin It's like I got some demons creepin' under the skin (Verse) I had some demons creepin under my skin, but i cut em out and treated the wounds that made me cry and now i - must find - a way out of the dark side cuz somewhere in my heart i - was broken and torn apart by this hard life - and thought happiness was to far out of sight til i finally opened my eyes and saw the sun rise and now i - won't let myself choke on my pride i woke up and soaked up the time and looked to the skies thank god i - didn't get to far caught up in pinnochio's lies whoa guys, i put the devil on hold - i'm all up in my head tryin to figure out what i know best what direction to take on this road, where do i go next? maybe a right turn this time since nothing is left but a shattered past that had me prayin for death like i was layin in bed rappin shit i wrote under my breath wondering who can hear me shed these tears when i drank 12 beers wishin i didn't have to be here cuz when i finally leave, there will be nothin left to fear but, wait a minute, let me write another verse to a song like oh my god, i don't know what the hell is goin on but it feels right, i'm holdin on even tho i'm gone i found a way to bring me back to life and keep me strong dear god, what have i done? what am i writing? what have i become? cuz now i feel free and i'm not so numb i can finally breath and i don't wanna run i can finally be whatever i want as i get away from all my nightmares in search for peace of mind, i'll get there Just throw on a beat, show me the mic booth i'll write you, 600 bars of my life that i fight thru on nights where, i wonder why i care how do i bare, and grin thru my nightmares and why i fear, the things that i might do if i don't open up to let it all shine thru and open your eyes to, the shit you're blind to and i search thru my mind with a fine tooth comb cuz i been lost just tryin to find my way home from these dark clouds all up in my head have me caught up in a bed of spiderwebs but i won't let em win, i found my out let to set out again to take my breath as i take these steps to see whats next i had to face darkness to enjoy the bright side when my mind trips - these are words to live by, yeah, these are words to live by

(Chorus) Words to live by as i write em waiting to die wondering what happens when i close these eyes do i finally forget about the things i've seen? the images the continue to haunt my dreams? am i walkin on a cloud and hear them loud strings? following the sounds to lead where the angels sing? (Verse) Tryin to forget the memories these pictures bring she's a scar on my heart now, gotta cut the string \put the lid on the box and pour out the gasoline and watch everything in my past go up in flames days keep movin, i'm always ready for change cuz every time the sun rises, nothing is the same so i just put my hands out to feel every droplet of rain i guess there wouldn't be much joy, if it wasn't for pain so i cry today knowing maybe i'll smile tomorrow writing every moment down, like there's no time to borrow so when i'm gone, you can listen to songs in sorrow while i'm singin from the heart and it sounds so hollow but know i was feelin bliss for the moment i wrote it down cuz my mind is numb to the pain, i'm feelin hopeful now cuz maybe i can mean somethin to somebody, some day some how, some way, maybe we can all run away (Chorus) (Chorus 2) when time just tic tocs These are words to live by cuz this makes time stop to help you get by When shit just gets hard you need to get high your hearts been ripped out and you just wanna die just let the music play loud these are words to live by (Chorus) (Verse) Some people said we shouldn't be seen together we don't fit, i'm to much of an outcast and a rebel to ever be good enough cuz there was better but you and i had chemestry, it was in the letters Go back and read em, those are what kept me breathin when i was cryin and beggin for a reason i was writin whenever i thought about leavin all i could think about was you, i need you you saved me, every day when i almost caved in and gave up, and traded away this pain for bliss now it's painful bliss, to keep me sane and fix whatever shame that hits, cuz now it came to this and at first i thought it was you that was givin up on me but i didn't see that i was startin to dis-believe in every dream that i used to see, and i set you free to let it be but you came back and thats all i needed (Chorus 2) (Verse) See i thought when we got together our love would be as tough as leather and we were gonna be that way forever cuz i didn't think there was anyone better i never saw you leavin like you did it felt like a knife was stuck in my ribs like how did it come down to this? the way you gave my heart a twist I just wish we coulda talked about a way to fix it, instead of walkin out but we let it end, i shoulda fell to my knees from the very beginnin and begged you please no baby don't leave, you're the one that i need if only you could see just what you mean to me but i guess if you love it than you gotta set it free and if it comes back, then it was meant to be (Chorus 2) (Outro)